As a new mom, I feel like I’ve been missing a lot and that I’m supposed to be doing more than I actually am. I feel like I’m not really making the most out of each day. Some days go fast and others are extremely slow and because my days are mostly routinary, I often wonder if I’m ‘siezing the day’.
And so I started praying this psalm and meditating on it.
Teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom. (Psalm 90:12)
What does it mean to number my days? Why does doing so can give me a heart of wisdom?
I used to work abroad and go home every summer and I remember how my little brother would cross out every passing day in the calendar as he awaits my arrival. He knew exactly how many days left before I come home. It would be great if I know the exact number of days I have left to live. I’m sure I will do everything I can to make the most out of this day if I know that it’ll be my last.
I believe this is what this psalm is talking about. That if I understand how short and uncertain life is then I will use each passing moment wisely. That I will be more intentional in using my time in whatever God has entrusted me with in each day. It includes nourishing relationships in my life to the best of my ability, being grateful for another day, and doing everything with a joyful heart.
I just recently celebrated my 35th birthday and looking back, I can see God’s faithfulness in my life. I could have died few times already yet God chose to extend my life here on Earth. I’ve spent years of regret, unforgiveness, anger and bitterness until I finally realize how I’m wasting my life. I believe that God wants me to be free from extra baggages and to live my life to the full.
Every day is indeed a blessing. May you also ponder on this psalm and ask yourself how can you make each day count.